Independent Thoughts as a Way to Achieving Independent Minds
I went to Sabah recently in a fit of compulsive self-challenge. Strangely, self-challenge was by coincidence a possible answer to the some of the more recent major issues in our beloved Malaysia.
I don’t think it’s a good idea to expose just what exactly my self-challenge was composed of. Suffice to say that the self-challenge consisted of a test on how resistant was I against a series of segregationist and ethnocentric polemics that has been plaguing our society since we were free of colonial rule and lived in sufficient peace. I wished to see how sturdy was I in going against the immensely strong stream of bigotries and knowledgeable ignorance. I wished to see how courageous was I in trying to stitch a leak with wisdom and impressions. Most importantly, I wished to peek out from beneath the coconut shell of bigger-than-life issues and leap out onto the bigger threats looming all around the little husk. Sabah cities, in my opinion, were good places within convenient reach in which I could observe the surroundings and enforce my willpower.
It was not surprising to see how the peace we had for many years has transformed certain groups of the society into abominations. They were like dogs chasing their shadows or barking at enemies conjured in their own mind. As a Muslim myself, It was saddening to see how we were constantly trained (read: brainwashed) into venting our anger against invisible enemies. In some sermons that I had attended, the community was asked to cast suspicion against ‘enemies, out to destroy us’. True, enemies would always be around somewhere, but were we taught to make enemies? Nay, but we were taught to prepare ourselves for confrontation at all times. Preparing for confrontation was not the same as making enemies. Preparing for confrontation meant that we should be aware of the infallibility of ourselves, that we should train our mind and body for any possible obstacles. Preparation meant arming our mind with beneficial knowledge and wisdom, and our body with beneficial prowess and constitution. Confrontations could mean just about anything; for example, we should confront stupidity with education, and disease with medication and greater hygiene practice. It did not necessarily signified other cultures or communities, but these two examples were the one cited the most in sermons.
The aforementioned paranoia of ‘them against us’ has made us fools afraid of even our own shadows. Thus, when the recent conflict in house of worship placement sparked an idea of offensive profanity among a certain group of people, it was almost a predictable flow of events. This, among other things, seemed to exemplify the fact that we as a community would strike out harshly without exceptions when we are provoked AND when we are provoking. It would not be a good example; it would be only a matter of time before someone else from another community took the same stance against us. When that time comes, only the Devil would be left standing and laughing in the middle of it all. These guys who started the ruckus, they were not prepared at all and they were paranoid to the very core of their faith. Despite their strong faithful looks, they were weak inside, drowning in the pool of segregationist sediment they had accumulated themselves. Even if the majority of us opposed such abject ridiculousness, the world would not see it that way; pretty soon, words would soon arise that we as a WHOLE supported such unscrupulous deeds, if we did not cut the problem at the root.
Perhaps it was time for us to revive the ascetic-monastic traditions of lore, where people in seclusion sought answers along lonely journeys throughout the wide world. Even if the majority of the Schools now reject monasticism, I found it worthy of thought on why our community shone brightly when such institutions existed, even among the purported excesses and corruptions of the Caliphates. Even in the middle of the Holy Lands conflict, the existence of such institutions has managed to keep a balance even throughout shifting political powers. We did not need to follow the format of Catholic or Buddhist monasticism inclusively; all that matters was for us to commit some time alone reflecting the issues of the world and then discussing the results with fellow monks. Heck, even the Prophet (peace be upon him) gained insights via solace (Arab: khalwat) although that word now usually meant close proximity, a hint at how much attempt has been made towards preventing us to think for ourselves.
The only one who could free you from the chains of dogmatic miasma shackling you to the ground is yourself. God would not help you; you’re just an insignificant flicker in the streams of existence unworthy of even the slightest attention, such that even you being able to live was a merciful act enough from Him. Not unless you’re helping yourself first. Until you actually make an effort to help yourself, divine help did not exist in the first place. Such notions were only one of the many self-motivation behind many of the ancient ascetic orders littering the Muslim Empires, before the succumb of the Assassin Federations against the massive Eastern barbarian hordes and the eventual fall of Muslim grace. Some scholars deemed it philosophically extreme to the point of heresy. I say they had a point. If you always thought that God would help us, like we were often told, then we would be lazy and dependent. A good dose of despair-driven assaults of self-challenges would be good for the continuous sanity of mind.
For me, I was glad to see that I was able to withstand the dogmatic assaults so far. The future would be uncertain, but all I had to do is fight on and keep the brain storm inside me alive .